the clouds parted and the sky is clear
the sun is shining
i’m finally present here
home follows me and i return to myself
at some point in the past, this was the image
a feeling and sentiment that is now distant but always tangible
standing alone on a rock
far out from shore, not sure how i got there in the first place
torrential rain blankets me
frigid air on soaked skin is an afterthought
the storm is raging, thunder is crashing and my arms are extended
i’m alone in the midst of the maelstrom
still smiling.
this is raw and this is real
i am feeling, i am alive
humans all over the world, living and those who have passed
we are now connected in this visceral experience
i can tell you about loss and pain and joy and gain
i committed to staying alone on that rock, to learn
to see what i had inside
what remains when i feel empty?
remains is the wrong word- if i use that word-
it means i’ve forgotten things that need to be remembered
since i’m never empty
and that cycle will repeat forever, that’s cool with me
but now-
a waking dream
the air is still, the oscillations in my mind have eased their cadence
i can remember being alone on the rock but now i’m the whole ocean
looking to embrace, envelop, return anything that is not mine
giving wherever i have room to share
the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel, that light is here
radiating on me, through me, through those i love and those who love me
the universe smiles back at me
and i am humbled.
the greatest lie i could tell myself-
that i don’t have what i need
the reality of my blessings:
no matter the time, or the energy it takes to continue persevering
i am consistently delivered exactly what i need
even if it wasn’t initially what i wanted
and it is this miraculous cycle of the next joyous moment revealing itself
that keeps the smile real
Thoughts and Musings 