warmth, comfort, knowing
unity after separation
wholeness after desolation
the parabolic return of light
happiness will keep coming
look, it’s already here!
like the mother falcon always returning to nest
only to provide, never for selfish means
like the wandering winter wolf wishing for a meal
but instead finds another wolf wishing for a meal
‘can i join your adventure?’
‘i don’t know where’
‘nor I’
‘wander together?’
two wolves aren’t always better than one
…they can be
the body seeking
adventure, stimulus, pace
never-ending speed
slipping, ‘shut up soul!’
ambition, or discontent?
un-fillable voids…
how long since you stopped?
lock and key, both were discarded long ago
i am the only one who knows
always safe, your secret
is it a burden?
been reflecting…
and it’s not a burden, why?
it’s locked with me too
someone wise told me
or no, i should say someone
who’s suffered greatly
said this, solemn-faced:
if you can’t forgive,
you don’t understand enough
about their story
well, I understand.
broken winged bird flies
your trust, forever preserved
in me lies a cave
where all secrets stay
guarded by bears, packs of wolves
fiercely protecting
we shared molecules
you and your journey-keep going!
we are not ours
verdant trees, mountain streams, remembered dreams- sunbeam!
serendipity shining, straightforward slicing of psychedelic silence
smile! giving life
laugh! sharing joy
mystery, I love it
captivate me more i dare you
i can take it
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is fear the same as not knowing?
fear and faith are one of the same
neither rooted in presentness
both grounded in the self
fear-‘risk brings pain’
faith-‘risk can bring pain. but does that make it worth avoiding?’
faith-‘pain brings growth. and what if this risk doesn’t bring pain?’
fear-‘preserve, hold on, keep your head down, survive.’
faith-‘step out! head up! let go! dive in, thrive!’
fear- ‘risk kills’
faith-‘life without risk? that is survival, not life’
airplane observing
she’s fidgeting, editing
photos and hiding
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fire without kindle
overriding, freefalling
intoxicating
dueling and dancing
forest felines circling around
feeling, sensing, aware
sweat-soaked saccharine
after sex spirit seance
astral projecting
=
i’m a spring salmon swimming upstream
i’m the fresh-from-hibernating grizzly waiting for a taste
i’m the lone wolf still slipping by, still seeking solitude
i’m the evergreen that planted roots
i’m the pineneedles that form your blanket
i’m your blanket that’s held too tight on some nights
i’m the roots that branched out and grew
i’m the roots that stepped into the stream for a taste of lifewater
and i continued to grow
and i’m the evergreen that planted roots and i’m the roots that kept growing
you’re your own ecosystem, you’re your own home
you’re a universe with it’s own pull and constellations
you’re the territory that’s uncharted, the road that is less traveled
you’re the mountain peak that can’t be ascended
you’re the siren song calling them back for more
you’re the winter wind burn on skin
you’re the warmth of still-summer beach breeze
you’re the salt that seasons the food and stings the eyes and burns my wounds
you’re shiva and shakti, tearing through like Vishnu
and it’s a gift to miss you
and it’s a blessing to feel new
The last taste of morning
coffee, salt on porcelain
skin is rewarding
empty mug and bed
ignorance is bliss? fuck it
just clearing my head…
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Two puzzle pieces
flying blind through time and space
just wanting to fit
but it is too easy
to forget, a completed
puzzle is more than
two pieces. instead
infinitesimal facets of
a whole being are there
they were always there
but you need to step away
from a puzzle if
you want to see it
as a whole. you could just look
in the mirror now
it’s alright to feel
like a puzzle piece, but know
you’re already whole.
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i think about all
of the guys who are doing
drugs just to forget
your eyes and your taste.
it’s not your fault that you’re a
loving addiction
one thing that always
grows is my love for my friends
it will be that way
Forever.
Changed over the years-
The dudes that have came
and left while I remain on
the couch observing
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none of us know why
we’re here or what we’re doing
so embrace it all!
life is short, unknown
change is rough but proves itself
again and again…
…to be good! it’s great
usually, change evokes loss
like change means losing
your job, or a lover
or your friends, or dreams deferred
but loss is good too
because when i feel,
when i realize that the ebb
and flow of my life
gave me another
perfectly frozen moment in time
how could i get here,
without change? fuck yeah!
the consistency of change
is the only thing
that will never change.
change doesn’t have to be loss
it can be growth, roots
roots that grow deeper,
more complex, solidified
some people will always
hold it down. stay present
change can look like connections
getting stronger, trust.
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Unconditional
love will be a mystery
until it is felt
no, even when felt
can still be misunderstood
feeling undeserving?
new feeling? not earned?
do you feel safe? if yes, breathe
kick your feet up cub
it’s always there for you
to ignore, accept, or explore
quiet calm, love strong
Until it is shown
consistently, over time
through hell and heaven
you have the power
to set a higher standard
or just be the same,
be the same as the
crowd of fair-weather friends
and conditional lovers
This is my practice
This is what I am about
And it will continue
Forever.
Thoughts and Musings 